Something Witty This Way Comes

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It seems like all I ever blog about is school, but considering I'm a student, school is my life and there isn't room for much else at the moment. Heh.

The school year is coming to a close, and I thank God for bringing me through yet another hellish but rewarding academic year. I've done well, for the most part, and I can't afford to lose momentum in the next two weeks. If anything, I'll need to remain focused and become more disciplined, as I have end of semester projects and final exams to get through. I have five papers and a makeup exam I need to get done by Tuesday, and my week will only get crazier from there. Oy. At least it's all ending soon, right?

I've also been reconsidering how I view myself and the world. As cliche as it sounds, I've identified a few things I actually like (to my surprise), some that I absolutely hate, and others that are rather insignificant and pointless to pick at. I want to be a different person come next August, the start of my final year as an undergraduate. I refuse to be the same whiny, depressive, negative little girl that I am now...I want to finally grow up and be mature, considerate, intelligent, motivated, and self-assured...characteristics that I already possess but need to refine over the summer.

I'm actually changing quite a few things about myself over the summer, and they're not all internal. My intensive diet and workout regimen will resume next month...and with the way I've planned it, there will be no slacking off. If I slack off this time around, then there truly is no hope for me. I've already subconsciously changed my eating habits, and that in itself is quite a feat. I'm eating healthier without having to consciously think about it...so many people struggle with that. I know I did in my past attempts.

I've also decided to change my last name, something I've been mulling over since last summer but only recently decided to do. I've explained this impending change to a few people, some of whom are completely confused as to why I'm changing the name I was born with. The short story is that my parents, particularly my father, never took a sincere interest in me, and when I finally reached out to him to try and establish a relationship with him, he didn't show much interest. My father, in my opinion, is a piece of shit, and since my maternal grandfather and my uncle are the only two men who have ever truly and honestly loved me and provided a positive image of what men are supposed to be, I choose to disregard his horrible example. With that said, I'm changing my name to my grandfather's name. Yes, it is my mother's maiden name, but I want to honor my grandfather.

Lastly, I'm really looking forward to my senior year. I have a few unique opportunities and can't wait to take advantage of them. One of them is getting to establish a HUGE community service project with my school's student government next fall, and I'm already stoked about it. Details later.

And that, dear friends, about does it for me. I have papers to write and only a few hours to do them in. Peace.

What did you drink that made you do your last famous Hollywood "spit-take"? 
Submitted by LittleGreenBook. 

White wine. My then-roommate told me that a local department store was having a going out of business sale and was selling authentic Coach bags for 75% off. I was flat broke at the time. Boo.

I'm tired of having a roommate
I'm tired of having a lazy roommate
I'm tired of my family thinking they can insult me and not expect me to get angry
I'm tired of my family thinking I'm being a smart ass (and overreacting) when I'm not being one
I'm tired of my family holding the fact that they pay my bills over my head whenever I get angry with them
I'm tired of this semester
I'm tired of wondering when my life will get better
I'm tired of being fat
I'm tired of being fat, yet not motivated enough to properly follow a diet
I'm tired of not getting enough sleep at night
I'm tired of being poor
I'm tired of having to deal with idiots, although that's probably never going to change
I'm tired of wondering what my life will be like in five years
I'm tired of being in undergrad
I'm tired of people giving me a weird look when I say I'd like to apply to Yale Law in a few years
I'm tired of people telling me how competitive the Yale admissions process is as though I don't already know
I'm tired of the racist attitudes in this fucking hick town
I'm tired of being the bigger person
I'm tired of being in this fucking hick town, but probably won't leave for another three years

I'm tired of a lot of shit.

A better one.

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Yeah, it would come out at sunset. It's been cloudy and raining all week. Boo.

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Yeah, it's her birthday. She's 38. Go Mariah.

You must think I'm lame for mentioning a celebrity's birthday, but whatever. :P

I've spent the last 20 minutes trying to make this entry interesting, and it just isn't happening. Meh. The long and short of it: I've decided to put off going to law school in favor of getting a graduate degree in Political Science first. I still plan on getting a law degree, just not in the next four years. I prefer to give myself as much of an edge as possible and the only feasible way to do that is to get the grad degree, work in Washington, D.C. for a few years, then apply. I've been looking into becoming a congressional aide/assistant, and I'm confident I could be good at that and enjoy the experience at the same time. For some people, working as an aide would appear to be the most boring, tedious, and thankless job there is to be had in D.C., but not for me. This is possibly my ticket to Yale folks, so I don't cringe at the thought of interpreting pending legislation, doing grunt work, meeting with lobbyists, or fielding calls from angry constituents. Getting the grad degree could do so much more for my career than rushing and trying to force my way into just any law school. I've found that settling often leaves me too dissatisfied and unhappy when I know there was something else I could have done to get what I wanted. I want to get into the best law school possible, not just any law school that will just take me. Does that make sense?  :D

If you were a bit lost with this entry, read the last one. It should make things clearer.

P.S. I don't have an unhealthy fixation (as one of my friends fears) on Yale Law, fine school that it is, it's just something to strive for, and if I'm not accepted there are other law schools that I'm interested in.