the love you take is equal to the love you make.
I haven't one of 'these' dreams in quite some time so I figured I should write it down while its still fresh in memory.
I remember being with a group of young people around my age... I didn't recognize them so I think I had just met them--maybe we were just acquaintances. Either way, we weren't close friends.
The majority of them were bubbly, carefree girls... they were going on and on about something extremely vapid. Which I usually wouldn't mind, but out of nowhere I had the strongest urge to tell them the world was ending -_- Yes, literally out of nowhere. More than that, I wanted to tell them WHY the world was ending, and what they might do to prevent it. But of course, like always, nobody wanted to listen to me. They had more important things to talk about, and they thought I was crazy.
Of course, at this point in the dream, it starts pouring rain outside.
We're all amazed because until then, it had been perfectly sunny and lovely... then the lightning. The thunder. Then the storm eruped into a hurricane... tornadoes... every form of disaster you could imagine. Everyone starts running around frantically (outside, for whatever odd reason) as I try desperately to explain to them that this is it. This is the End.
They don't listen.
Out of nowhere, again, I feel myself begin to lift off the ground.... I look around, thoroughly confused, at the world disappearing beneath me. People on the ground begin to look up at me, rain pouring down on them, in awe. Me? I'm more confused than anyone -_- But I finallly look behind me to see gigantic, gorgeous wings that resemble that of an angel sprout from my back.... very odd, indeed!
Regardless of my new 'identity', I am powerless to stop what is happening to the world. In fact, it was only their choice, their decision, to change and they chose not to. There is nothing I, or anyone else, could do to change that. Massive, finalizing events had to take place for them to see that they were living wrong for so long... and it was time for change. A final paradigm shift. Whether they wanted it or not- there it was.
And the beautiful angels circled the world watching the ugly old being replaced with the beautiful, Loving new.
It might not be in the holiday spirit, but we want to know anyway: What's the best present you received this year?
season five of desperate hosuewives.
What’s your idea of the perfect proposal?
Brought to you by Leap Year. In theaters January 8th.I never dreamed of the way it would happen, I never thought too much about it. I guess it's one of those things where you just think less about it so that when it happens you'll be all the more surprised. To be honest, I don't expect much and it takes very little to make me happy. So- the way it happened for me - the simple sweetness of the way Bobby proposed to me and way it was so unexpected - that was perfect.
Speaking of Leap Year, I really like Amy Adams for some reason. Out of utter boredom and nothing else to watch on the treadmill, I watched Julie & Julia and decided I like her. I still haven't even seen New Moon. I haven't wanted to put him through that - haha.
What are you hoping to find under the tree this year?
i don't know. i'm not that much for christmas presents.. to me it's more important to spend time with the people i love. but.. as far as presents go, i wouldn't mind season five of desperate on dvd (which my bf has hinted he's getting for me) and money or giftcards to buy whatever i want for.
The birth of my brother 22 years ago automatically secured me with a built-in room mate if ever I needed one, and well, the time has come. I asked him some months ago, following me telling Chris I want a divorce, if he would be interested in being my room mate. Three weeks ago I became full-time status at work, thus allowing me to think more strategically about living on my own. Him and I found a place, and will be moving in sometime next week. There are several caveats that come to mind, however:
- Neither of us plan on being in San Diego for very much longer (much to my parents dismay, I'm sure). Referring back to my previous post, I plan on being in San Diego no longer than 1 more year, and my brother will be discharging from the Navy in 2011 to join the Marine Corps.
- Related to caveat 1, we need to decide within the next 6 months if we're going to continue living there until he leaves (meaning I will be paying rent for a place I won't be living in for 3 months and potentially not be going back to at all after I complete Officer Candidacy School).
- We have absolutely nothing to put in our house besides what little belongings we both have, a TV and various game consoles that are rightly his, and a cat that is rightly mine. By some act of God, I managed to secure a mattress and two couches from various coworkers for a small fee. Supposedly it's all in great, gently used condition. At this point, I couldn't give a shit...
- Despite being able to "afford" living on my own, I will be living just within my means. I will be broke for a long, long time, which will make me leaving for OCS that much more meaningful.
But everything about the situation makes those three (and I'm sure there are more...) points completely worth the trouble. Our situation is entirely temporary. Just the fact that I'll be on my own, with my own room and own space, is more important to me than any of the negative aspects that may arise.
Not all those who wander are lost...
...life moves on. I'm still living, still breathing, happy with myself and the choices I've made with my life. Instead of succumbing to the split-second thought "it's 9 in the morning and well, I'd rather stay in bed all day", I realized not a whole lot gets done when you're just laying there. The same could be said for just about everything in life. Every day, I am faced with a situation that proves just how true that is. So I get up, time and time again. Pull back the covers and face the world, because the world will go on without me regardless.
I am on the move. In 3 months, I will be done with nursing school and ready to face the world. I want to join the Navy as a nurse; I am forcing myself to meet new challenges that I never thought I'd ever choose to take on. If I do this, I will be moving to a completely different coast for 3 months, by myself. Who knows what kind of physical and mental challenges I'll go through once I'm there to prepare me for the military life. On top of that, where will I decide to "end up" once I'm done with my training: back to San Diego, stay on the east coast, go overseas? The possibilities will be endless, and I can't wait. This is exactly the kind of thing I've been waiting for, what I've broken away from my old life for. To not only find myself, but to make myself.
The stress, frustration, and anguish of a life gone wrong are dredged up constantly. I need a fresh start to mend this broken heart. Granted, everything that ever happened to me was partially because of me, but it doesn't hurt any less. I look forward to moving on from all of this, creating a new image for myself, and coming home eventually to find that time really does work miracles. At least, that's what I'm hoping for. I will miss my family and friends more then anything, but I'm no stranger to this. For this I am thankful for coming from a Navy family. I am no stranger to change; in fact, I often times crave it. Stability, stricture, and discipline are some things I need. I'm far too spoiled for my own good, I need a swift kick in the ass and a little growin' up to boot. I also want to see the world (for free) and the spare change I'll collect along the way isn't a bad incentive.
Divorce is hard, heartbreak is hard too. But an unhappy life is unacceptable. And I am finally happy.
I worked this morning until 1:30, and after that I went to my grandmothers to have dinner there. It was my moms side of the family. It was okay, it just felt different this year. Things were crazy. I felt bad for my mom because she cooked most of the items since my grandma is not well lately. The food was okay, turkey was super dry but if I were my mom I wouldn't be too worried about that either... I picked at my food... eventually left to go home and get ready to go over Bobby's. I love my family but I felt kind of awkward this year. Not too many people actually take an interest in what goes on - they mostly just chastise you for not coming around lately.
Anyway.
So once I got there, his family was already home from his grandparents house. The first thing he did was feed me his grandmas "green jello". I recall seeing it last Christmas actually, but I didn't eat there so I never tried any. It's DELICIOUS! It's made with lime jello and cream cheese and pineapple and walnuts and coconut I think. It tastes like a fruit snack only in .. fluffy jello with pineapple and nuts style.
Then we watched..... CHRISTMAS VACATION!
I was secretly super excited about this because no joke, I had visions of watching this with them soon and I kind of hoped we'd watch it tonight but I never even mentioned anything, Bobby brought it up! After the movie, his parents brought us a big piece of his grandmas pumpkin pie to share. It's as tasty as my grandmothers is, only maybe not quite as sweet. Also, there is more to it. His grandmothers is bigger in general. It was delicious!
So after that, myself, bobby, and his mom and dad played a couple games of apples to apples. During the second game Bobby decided he wanted a turkey sandwich and this is when I sampled some of their leftovers.
The turkey was sooo good. I never knew turkey could taste that good. It was juicy too. Definitely not used to it! His grandmother makes a sausage stuffing and she puts like 12 eggs in it. It's more dense and seems more like egg than bread but it was very tasty. Oh and his mom also gave me some of the green bean casserole she made.
Then we all went back in the living room and started watching something else - i forget what - i was mostly cuddling with Bobby.
Eventually they went to bed and we just relaxed together the rest of the night.
But the cute thing - during the leftover break - Bobby's mom was like "So, your guys anniversary is coming up soon huh!"
Later I mentioned to Bobby I was surprised she mentioned that, and he was like "yeah! me too!"
His dad was asking me if I like fish and everything because they do the italian 7 fish thing. So I guess I'm invited over for Christmas again this year. I wasn't TECHNICALLY invited over last year as we'd only been dating for what - 15 days haha... but uh it all worked out =). They didn't have a problem with me coming over for christmas and they were going back to his grandparents house later that night (they live right down the street) and they just had me come along.
I love his family... they are wonderful people.
Oh and then I was cracking up because I guess earlier that day Bobby and his dad were walking up the basement steps (their garage pretty much is their basement) and his dad saw his pants hanging on the line that have a big hole in the crotch. Well his dad was like "What, she didn't want to wait?" or SOMETHING like that, LOL.
He was kidding of course.
But omg - that made me laugh. I wouldn't expect it of him.
Anyway I'm done blabbing. I hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving =)
Well, so much for writing more often. I guess the occasional post is better than no post at all. Anyways, I know in my last post I mentioned we were going to be having a baby in March. Well, that's changed. We are still having a baby. Just won't be in March. It will be April 9th. The health unit was off about 3-4 weeks. I will be 21 weeks this Friday. We found out on the 19th that we are having a little boy. A precious, healthy baby boy who will be named Landon Scott. We couldn't be happier. We are so excited. Not only that it is a healthy baby but that it is a boy. It's what we both wanted. He has just recently started to kick. Bryan finally felt him kick last night. He looked so happy when he felt the kicks. He is going to be such a great father. I can't wait to hold my baby boy in my arms. Just a few more months to go. Anyways, I just wanted to fill you guys in on what is going on now. :)
Pesto Tortellini
Serves 2
1 12 oz package of meat tortellini
6-7 mushrooms
3/4 cup frozen peas
Handful of grape tomatoes
3 tablespoons of pesto
1 tablespoon olive oil
2 teaspoons water
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon sugar
Cook homemade pesto if desired. Refrigerate. In pot, make meat tortellini as directed. Add salt. Drain over colander. In small saucepan, heat olive oil. Add chopped mushrooms and peas. Add water. Saute mushrooms and peas for approximately 5 minutes. In bowl, toss tortellini. Add in pesto and toss. Add sauteed mushrooms and pease. Add sugar. Toss in tomatoes, and serve warm.
